figments

year 2011 is what i call “my pain year” lahat na yata ng klaseng pain naramdaman ko —physical, emotional, intellectual. .hehehe parang budoy lng, but still im very thankful. Those moments taught me so many things; learned a lot, and enjoyed new experiences. I cried, laughed, laughed and cried at the same time, minsan kala ko mababaliw na ako but all of these paid off coz now i’m stronger! I’ll keep on fighting coz i know God is with me all the time. Sabi nga nila there’s always a rainbow after the rain. Kaya 2012 here i come!!! =D

when shadows fail

i shall be there

when your feet start to falter

and your hands tremble

i shall be there

when everything seem lost

friends, relatives, loved ones

i shall be there

when the sound of laughter are hushed

and sadness loom

i shall be there

when the curtains that signals the end

finally drops & the light seem no more

i shall be there

to hold your hands

and bid you sweet farewell

-Anesia B. Dionisio

 jan. 15, 1997

hindi pa rin matahimik ang kaluluwa kong patuloy ang paghahanap sa mga sagot sa tanong na bakit …umiiyak . .hindi mapakali …sana kahit minsan maramdaman mo ang pagkatuliro, na sa mga sagot mo matatahimik ang balisa kong kaluluwa …hinahanap …ninanais na muling mahawakan …ngunit tila ang tadhana na ang humatol para di mo na ako muling guluhin …hindi kita maaring burahin sa ala-ala . . .pilitin man gawin ay lalo lang maririnig ang tinig mong tinatawag ang aking pangalan …pababayaan kitang manatili …ngunit hangga’t wala pa ring sagot sa bakit …kaluluwa ko’y patuloy na di matatahimik …

one day, i saw this girl standing alone under a tree. She was looking very far. I saw the expression on her face kept on changing. One minute it’s blank and then there’s sadness, then anger and then she closed her eyes. She shut them tight. The moment she opened them a tear fell then tears started falling. She cried silently. Upon seeing her cry I felt her pain. Very painful it’s like she wanted to die. She wanted to cry everything out, all the things that makes her feel miserable. She started sobbing. I pitied her. I wanted to tell her that she will be alright. She will be alright because she will be stronger after this. I wanted to but I decided to walk away and left her crying. I know she needed that to drain all the heartaches and sadness. For after that she will be a new person—wiser, bolder and stronger.